and the rain keeps fallin down...

oh yes.
it's raining.

but
today is a good day mostly.
had fun in the kitchen today when i finally got fed up and took over the preparation for christmas dinner with dad's side of the family. the day was relatively stress-free, considering the company, and only once did i truly wish i was not there. several times, on the other hand, did i wish i had someone else there with me. heh
i've been really noticing in myself a tendency to assume the worst in certain situations with which i think i am already familiar. let me explain. my dad and i have a somewhat strained relationship most of the time, because i always feel like he doesn't trust me or believe i can do anything for myself, and he always feels like i don't respect him or give him the time of day he deserves. but over this break, i have found that often i don't take into consideration the surrounding circumstances when things happen between us...like how stressed and depressed he can be about a certain thing or a bunch of things and then i come in with this little issue, but it's the straw that breaks the proverbial camel's back, and i don't cut him any slack for what he's dealing with at the moment. or also how i assumed that today's family get-together would be AWFUL because everyone on that side of the family is so intense and high-strung, and while they still were, it was really a fun day, and i should not have spoken so soon when describing the choas and pain that it would be...it's wasn't. i guess i'm just noticing something new about myself of which to be aware and take heed...assumptions blow.

i was just thinking...i miss the days when i was the dinnertime entertainer at the alderbrook resort restaurant. i mean, who wouldn't miss it? i got $25 an hour + tips, got to play/sing whatever i felt like at any given time, and got a free dinner from this beautiful 4-star restaurant...

too bad they sold the piano...and the resort...heh.

and now, for no particular reason, or at least not one that is clear to me, it is on my heart to share these lyrics that i love so much...i'm not sure i will ever know why this song means so much to me...goodnight everybody.

yes my friend, it's raining again today
i never understood why you chose to stay
in a climate that mostly wet and grey
when what you loved was a sun so hot
it turned the green grass brown
and the rain keeps fallin down

i thought the sky would cry itself dry by this time
i thought that i would see the sun by now
one more tear might wash away this god-forsaken town
but the rain keeps fallin down

who am i a regular kind of guy
i never let the clouds clutter up my sky
learned to party but never learned to cry
and even now my tears won't move
they're painted on a clown
but the rain keeps fallin down

i wish that i could let go
like the storm clouds burst through the dam
like a flood breaking down a wall
heaven seems to weep with far less reason
but i can't cry at all

i thought the sky would cry itself dry by this time
i thought that i would see the sun by now
one more tear might wash away this god-forsaken town
but the rain keeps fallin down

yes, the rain keeps fallin down