"heh" is just about the way it goes today...

people often tell me in chats that i say "heh" too much...but sometimes, it's the only thing there is to express what's happening inside me...

today is a heh day. everything is just striking me as...mostly...indifferent. decision makers are not making decisions and i'm left, slightly confused, to figure it out and spread the word...but then that risks that it's not what everyone else wants, and it's my fault for setting up this lame deal. heh.


then there's other stuff...that i can't explain. where i just get into these heh moods and all that could change it is romance. which blows. i don't wanna be that kind of person. i'd be so annoyed at me if i were dating me...because of these stupid moods where i just wanna be treated all special and sweet...but i don't deserve it. but then, my mood won't change until that happens...or until i sleep a night. heh.

in a half hour i am going to walk to vandy. in the rain and cold. heh.

but the trip will be worth it...i suspect. it almost always is.

this love thing is really something...heh.