lazy days calling to you...

i've been sitting today.
that's all, really. i woke up in glen's bed (don't worry he wasn't here. he had to go home to b-more for church today. i just wanted to sleep somewhere that i could actually rest.) and i haven't moved from it yet. he'll be back here tonight at some point, and i may or may not still be here when he gets back. i suppose i will be needing food sometime...hmmm....

*if* i can get my lazy ass off this bed, which is not only in a quieter, politer room, but is ::much:: more comfortable than my 6"-thick top bunk...ugh. thanks, glenables.

it is good to sit here today. i have been thinking a lot...and for the first time in quite a while, that's not a bad thing. thinking has been good for me the past couple of days...it's funny how that works, isn't it? i've discovered that thinking about the future is not a reasonable thing to do until a certain point in one's life...because there is no point in thinking about the future unless there is a definite future about which to think -- as definite as it can be, anyhow. but you know what i mean? i've tried to think of the future of this relationship before, and it's just not worth it, because as far as i can truly know right now, there is no basis for future thought. i am MUCH happier just letting it happen as it does right now, because unless/until there is mutual committment in any kind of plans, there is no rationality in making plans that are one-sided...it's actually pretty selfish. i have simply learned to think of really how happy i am right now, and how much i love the life with which God has blessed me in these days.

wasn't planning on saying all of that. but i did. :) mmmmmmk. i'm done for now.

come out to play. the future lies with you...